Finally The Life Mystery Solved

Finally, the mystery is solved. atleast from my part. the life mystery. the answer  to one of my greatest questions: what is life?
and here is the answer: LIFE IS LIVING.
yeah. the simplest possible one. having searched science, spirituality, religions, films, novels, songs and god knows what what, i came to this conclusion - that life is all about living. after all, we are no special beings to have a different kind of purpose. we too are just the same as everything else out there in the universe. the atoms assembled and we are made. ofcourse there are laws defining how and why. but when it comes to life question, its a verb called living. yes, we are doing something - living. just as electrons are revolving, planets are orbiting, we are living. should it mean anything more. i have come to find that it shouldn't. it is through this answer that science meet spirituality, a thing i believed since the starting, that these must meet. science and spirituality are two greatest efforts of mankind that search truth in its exact form. and they must be same if the truth is same. here, in my conclusion, both are satisfied. and i am happy finally.
i am in no mood to explain how both are satisfied. just wanted to write my final conclusion.
and ofcourse, living can be of any type. happy, sad, messy, love, painful or any other type. these are also truths of living. can't be discarded. but the main point is: who told you sad living is wrong, painful living is wrong, messy living is wrong. the bad feeling is only in our thinking. we think, we think that hey! i have always failed in life, its wrong. this is the approach we have made. its true that you have failed. but it is not true that failure is wrong. its just another form of living. and you are living it. this the the best thing. only living is the truth. and if you are doing so, in any way, it is the best thing you can do.
i should share it with you. today, i was watching the movie AMELIE. there was a man in it - a failed writer. yes, he had failed. but he was still happy in the end. he lived that failure in a very beautiful way. he never saw it as a wrong thing, but a way of life. and see the result - he was happy. happiness will automatically come if you see this truth. its not that you need  to live happily; but happiness will come itself. buddha has very beautifully said: " there is no way to happiness; happiness is the way". you live any way, happiness will itself come.
thats what i have found. life is living. only and only. no more, no less. this is my final theory about life. and i am so happy that i have finally discovered one of my biggest questions.

now all i need to concentrate on is to live my thoughts. implement them in my practical life. its a  hard task. i always find it hard to implement them in real life.

UPDATE (23-10-2012): Don't listen to it! It was perhaps just result of my frustration of being unable to understand life!

Origin Of Universe - going back in time

My earlier childish theory about the origin and fate of universe is coming back to me again.
It all started in 2008 when i was in 11th class. a newly young curious mind, unable to swallow the happenings of the world as they are, started making its own theories about the universe (which later diverted to finding secrets of mind and life). Of course the first question that it faced was, famous, how the universe originated. while i was busy trying to solve it (although knowing nothing about it), a news came on TV that a time machine is about to be made. this immediately diverted my mind to that. how can a time machine be made? how can the future be predetermined? luckily, i had seen a program on history channel that was showing Einstein and his theories. from there i got to know that universe is made up of space-time fiber and mass distorts this fiber. time! so time is there, my mind started thinking. time, along with space, make up the basic structure of universe. so if the future is predetermined, which the scientists on TV were saying so confidently, it must be because this time in fiber runs in a predetermined way. why?  then the idea stuck! maybe because it wants to remove that distortion. everything wants to come in its previous state when distorted. it must too.
that was the main idea that i want to discuss today - minimization of distortion. but let me first complete that theory of mine. then, in the same program i had seen the equation, that wonderful equation: E=Mc². so, mass can be converted into energy, i thought. and energy do not distort space-time. so the tendency of the whole space-time fiber should be to convert all the mass into energy. to remove its distortion. so this the theory i made - all happenings of the universe are nothing but its way to convert its whole mass into energy, in the most easiest way.

now, after 4 years and having read much about this universe, this mind, and about spirituality, i think i am again coming to the same answer, same theory of mine, when i think about the origin and fate of universe.
here is what i think now-a-days: universe is borne out of a distortion, a distortion in its perfect state. and what caused that distortion might be called as the god, the evil, or whatever. but it was a distortion, a disbalance, a discontinuity somewhere for an instant that led to whole of this. and the universe is struggling to get back to its previous state. and all that is happening, the laws of physics or the laws of spirituality, all are the result of this very struggle. all these laws are to remove the discontinuity, or the effects of that discontinuity.
how? i don't know. but i think spirituality is involved in all this. what we call enlightenment might be the answer. they say that after enlightenment, one goes beyond this space-time. that means a part of universe is lost. may be in this way, small by small, everything will go out of this universe, and THEN universe will be back to initial, perfect state. everything that is happened and is happening- the big bang, the making of atoms, of our solar system, the origination of life, the evolution, the making of humans, humans getting power of consciousness, and their ability to get enlightened, all this is systematic and predetermined. its not only humans; life might be at other places too.
yes, it looks idiotic. but i have a small proof too. Buddha, and almost all enlightened ones, after getting enlightened, saw the truth of this. and thats why he wanted, he desired all others to get enlightened too. why he saw this world as suffering? its because he could see how this world is imperfect. and the only way to get it perfect is enlightenment.
you might say that how one can gets out of this universe on enlightenment whereas his body is still there and remains there even after his death. but its not that way. this world is a maya. its a virtual world. even buddha said that. it looks like real and physical but in actual, its all about soul, consciousness, I.
you might say why then enlightenment not come to everybody. It do. it do come to everybody. Osho said that it can wait, it can wait upto infinity. Jiddu Krishnamurti said that truth is a pathless land. you can't go to it, it will come to you. but at the same time Osho said it doesn't come to everyone. you have to be a seeker, you have to do effort for it to come. If not in this birth, in some other birth.

I don't know how much i am right or wrong. i must be wrong. i just wanted to share this fact that what i used to think long ago, when everything was new and unknown, is coming again to me. i find it amazing!

Resistance Is In The Very Nature Of Life

Now-a-days I am reading more about Osho & Jiddu Krishnamurti, thanks to my friend Ashish Goswami. They are known to be enlightened ones and they all say same thing, but in different ways, depending on their past history. I particularly like krishnamurti, because he talks straight. everything as straight and frank as possible. Tell you what, they say true things. I admit that i had to agree almost everything they said. Basically what they say is - the truth is that everything just is; and the cause of all suffering is either our ignorance about it or our resistance and effort not to accept it.
But i don't  want to talk much about what they said in detail. What i want to share is my doubts about their theory. There are many. No, none in their sayings and talks but outside that.

What is life, again? but this time scientifically. As we know, everything happening out there in universe, from a small chemical reaction to the nuclear fusion in stars, is because of the very tendency of everything to become stable, to decrease its energy somehow. We know physics laws explain what happens, but why that happens? the answer of why is this. to decrease energy, to be stable. Now life. In my biology textbook it said life is nothing but a constant struggle of an entity to not enter into a stable, less energy state. I mean its against the very general law of whole else universe. In this way life is extraordinary. It always wants to escape from being stable. we all are just result of this very nature of life.

But isn't it resistance... escape from what is? effort to not be what is? Resistance is in the very nature of life. its a fact, isn't it? So is this whole life suffering? Not only humans but the whole living...animals, trees, bacteria...every DNA & RNA. They say our mind, our memory, the neurons in our brain are the real evil. It works based on the past, not the present. But the DNA too is a storing element. It too should be evil. So the whole life is nothing but suffering. Only the non-living things accept what is. Only after death one can get freedom. This is my first doubt - it it true?

There is another doubt. They say that one can be free only after the understanding, the awareness of the truth - the acceptance of what is. They say that there should be no beliefs, no desires, no effort to change what is. But then how is all gonna work? There is Aeroplane only because there was a desire to fly. We will eventually go into the stone age. And even there its not gonna stop. Desires are there too. In the end, we have to transform into non-livings. I think there cannot be a society according to what they say. And thats the problem, a practical limitation.

The Universal Constant that never was

In recent days, my thinking about this world has changed upside-down-to up again. a lot is happening. a lot.  The Buddha → None → Richard Dawkins → The Truth → The Buddha Again → The lake (today).

           "In a tiny particle there exists an entire universe". exactly the same happened to me today. i was sitting by the lake in our college all alone (its an irony that students keeps on wandering here & there for a nice place to sit, but only a very few know about this lake). yes it always feels nice to sit on such a place alone, but i was searching for something else. the missing links between the buddha, richard dawkins, & the truth. somehow they all were contradicting each other at some points although looking perfect at their own place. ducks swimming on the rippling surface of water, creating more ripples. AND SUDDENLY...what? an IDEA stuck. at that precise moment...so precise that i could only feel that it happened. THIS LAKE IS THE UNIVERSE!. i starting seeing that lake like a whole universe, like a metaphor. life living in this lake like life in universe, or on earth. firstly i compared buddha's three truths; fitted perfectly. then i considered richard dawkins; fitted even more easily...like there was no problem at all. like only i was making it complex in my mind, like how can it be so simple!, like why didn't i thought of that earlier.
            our universe is just like this lake. i am not going to discuss now how it (lake) was created...will take it some other time. abided by some physics laws, water moves, creates ripples i.e. keeps changing, in position here. slowly life started originating in it...then evolution...algae, fishes, ducks...reproducing before dying to keep life going. they die, turn into soil, nurishes algae...and somehow keeps this cycle going. look everything is changing, but nothing is destroyed. it just changes shape. particles are same. and everything is bounded together by the law of cause & effect. so buddha is there. and no problem with richard either.
           now let me talk about life a little more here. EVERYTHING MATTERS, and still NOTHING MATTERS.  everything matters in the sense of law of cause and effect. your slightest of action WILL change each and everything of this entire universe, in some way. BUT, universe as a whole remains the same. it just doesn't matter at all what you do, universe as a whole will still remain there, in the same manner, same laws. you do a cause, it has an effect and that's it! i know its a bit difficult to explain it but...i am viewing it that way. we are just mere beings in this vast universe of vast variety and complexity. we just stand nowhere. one day we will die, our particles will make up something else, soul something else, according to buddha's law of change. basically we will remain forever there in this universe in the form of the effects we made by our actions or causes, which (the effects) in turn lead to other's actions...and it goes on and on. but have u seen? even our actions/causes were also due to the effects of some other's causes. we are no independent causers. u have to understand it. we are just a mere mere part of this never ending cycle. of  cause and effect. causes make effects. effects make causes. everything is changing but nothing dies. THESE ARE BUDDHA'S THREE TRUTHS.
            now i would like to come on ENLIGHTENMENT. what basically enlightenment is? it is the realization of truth. realization, not knowing. what it does? it escapes a man from this cycle of cause and effect. although i still have some doubts in it, but we can look it in this way very easily. suppose a duck from lake came to know the truth about lake (either through science or through introspection/meditation (which is much easier)). so now it has got the power of coming out of the lake and escape from its cycle of cause and effect. so an element of that lake has escaped forever. not destroyed, but now i will never be subjected to its cause or effect. (here i must mention that i still can understand why? why buddha saw this cycle of cause and effect as suffering? why one ever need to get out of it? why it should be his purpose of life? one by one everything will escape and universe will turn into nothingness. the whole play will end!) .
now problems - i don't exactly know what happens at enlightenment. do all the effect he made throughout his life/cycle are destroyed. but this can't be possible. and do , and if yes, why do enlightenment can happen only by humans? why are we so-so special? 'coz being enlightened can considered as probably the biggest possible event.

there are many more thing i still can and want to say, but you can figure out them yourself...just go to a lake one day :)

Decoding Life - now the game begins

since i have watched this video, 4-5 days back, it seems my consciousness, my boundary of thinking has reached to a new level. it seems like now i can think beyond the earlier limit of thinking. it actually happens. and in my case it always happens in a discrete manner. normally people acquire this over a period of time, they grow wiser gradually without knowing. but in my case, i am actually aware that i am growing wiser now...i can actually feel that moment. its an amazing thing, and i like this property of mine.
              now let me share with you what i am feeling and thinking now-a-days. it would had been a different   post had i not watched this video. this introduced science in my thinking...again, and this time in a bigger and better way. who are we? we are humans. what are we composed of? atoms. that means the purpose of existence of that single atom should also the purpose of every else thing, including us. but its a deeper thing, much deeper. i can't think of, can't even imagine what can be the purpose of existence of an atom. so let me raise the level. lets talk about life. through darwin's theory of evolution and natural selection it is clear that we are made out of some initial single cell organisms. let me call them as initial life. what was their purpose, in that lifeless world? to sustain their existence, anyhow. and with the limits of practical world, they couldn't achieve immortality. so what remained? reproduction. making one's own copy. how simple! and as we have ascended from there, this should, no must, be ours purpose also. reproduction. producing similar beings for immortality, of oneself, of life. we are no special beings that nature has selected a different purpose for us only. its just our consciousness that has produced such ideas of different purposes. isn't it?
                 now let me go a little more to roots. what actually life's intention was? it was the maintenance of existence, not reproduction straightforward. maybe thats why life makes evolution. to cope with unfavorable conditions. and with the course of time it made us. gave us consciousness. maybe so that we can go to live on some other planet in case there is threat on whole earth! it seems silly...but who knows, nature knows everything.
                 now the problems i am facing with this theory. right now it is mainly-what is enlightment then? i pretty firmly believe buddha. how he got to know all the truths of this universe at that moment of enlightment. what was that? i still am unable to find a way out.

Decoding Life

What is life?

look, there are many many answers for this simple three word question. everybody has his own point of view. ofcourse i have mine, too. But this can't be true, how can it be? it should has only one answer...some says life is just how you live it, doesn't matter how. yes this can be true, & i AM searching for such a universal kind of answer, that cover every fact, every answer. and what pulls me closer to this particular answer is this: look, everybody dies. those who did great, inspiring works also, and those who did nothing in their life also. the end result seems to be same for all. so if you are searching for HOW TO LIVE type of question, then this point of view sincerely suggests you to stop searching. any way will do the job.

                  but now comes in my mind the Buddha picture. he so simply explained the law of cause and effect. and as a science student, who is a fan of Einstein, i can imagine his talks with space & time. every cause we do, it has an effect. it changes the space-time fibre which in turn brings change in the whole universe, including the causer also. this change is governed by some  physics laws. and that's all. many quotes and sayings are covered by this theory. this is also the law of karma. now i comes to our own world.what ours say...good doings will have good results, and bad doings will have bad results. tell you what, i personally have come across this fact more no. of times than any other fact: 'there is no good or bad'. causes are just causes, who the hell are we to classify them. nature know no such classification. its a mere case of chance that we live in this world where such and such acts are considered as good, and such and such as bad. in some other world, this standardisation might be something else...maybe there killing people might be considered as good. its just for the economy and creation of stable society that such classification of good and bad is made. at the universal level it doesn't exist. and not only ours the humans, every other thing such as animals, atoms, electrons, waves, energy, thoughts...everything should have this cause and effect. with this same space & time.

                  to be continued...

First blog, dedicated to my mind

sometimes, ah! no, most of the  time my mind goes on wandering here & there. actually, anywhere except that particular place. thinking somethings, in no way related to me, or my life. thoughts are same, but sometimes there is a whole war, turmoil, everything just not right, and sometimes there is quietness. same things become right somehow.

i can never understand it, my mind.
thats all for my first blog. dedicated to my mind!